My biggest regret

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I’m not one to worry too much about things that happened in the past.

I’ve made peace with most of the stupid things I’ve done and said. It helps to eventually realize I was a pretty big jerk in my younger days. I get it. More importantly, I’m past it. There are still a couple of things that happened that I regret.

I don’t know if I’ve ever told anyone about this. At some point, either late in high school or early in college, I thought I wanted to do something different. For those who know me, I love playing music. I wanted to be a musician. A real, touring musician. The music I was into at the time the only way to get signed was to move to Los Angeles and play the clubs on Sunset Strip. I knew I didn’t have that kind of aspiration. I knew I wanted to learn more about music and the business of music. I had heard of Belmont University. They had a music program. I looked at the brochure.

All of the sudden

Fear started creeping in. How could you think you are good enough? Move somewhere where you know absolutely no one! How are you going to pay for stuff, you only know how to work in a grocery store? All these questions and very few answers. I don’t even remember talking to my parents about this. I can’t even remember if all this happened over a the course of a couple of weeks… or just a couple of minutes. It doesn’t really matter.

I talked myself out of even trying. I really regret that.

 

I have to remember as a parent it is my responsibility to guide my kids. I also have to remember to not let them fall into the same mistakes I made. I don’t want anyone, including and especially me, telling them there isn’t anything they can’t do. I don’t want to be the one to tell them to be realistic. I know it sound cliché, but being realistic doesn’t change the world for good. I want to change the world for the better, even if it’s just raising my kids to be the world changers.

I still get to play music and where I play is the exact place I’m supposed to be right now. It won’t lead to me a touring musician anytime soon and that’s okay. I have 2 more important projects to work on at the moment. One is 5 and the other will be 4 by the time this post comes out.

What is your biggest regret?

  10 comments for “My biggest regret

  1. Diana Miller
    May 14, 2015 at 2:25 am

    Moving from NJ. I don’t get to see my mother. It wasn’t important when I was young. Its real important now, I miss her terribly. I don’t miss Jersey though.

    • May 14, 2015 at 10:42 am

      I understand that. My family all lives in Louisiana and we are close. I miss being around them. My mom has asked on several occasions when I was moving home. I told I was already there.

  2. May 14, 2015 at 6:08 am

    I think regrets are part of growing up. We all have them just some of us are able to let go of them. I used to regret not finishing school the first time I tried, not joining the navy, quitting being a DJ and more. Without those choices, whether they were looked at as failures at the time. They brought me to where I am today and I don’t regret that in any way.

    • May 14, 2015 at 10:40 am

      I get that it’s part of growing up. It just hit me the other day how I let fear dictate what I did, for no reason. It made me a little sad. I know other events brought me to where I am and I’m grateful for being where I am.

  3. May 14, 2015 at 7:48 am

    Drugs & prison.

    • May 14, 2015 at 10:43 am

      That makes my regrets seem small. What you have gone through and overcome is amazing. It speaks loudly to your character.

  4. May 14, 2015 at 12:24 pm

    Great article and reminder about our role as parents. I wrote something very similar to this earlier this week and posted it today. It’s about guiding our kids to do what they love. Would love for you to check it out!

    • May 14, 2015 at 12:27 pm

      Stephanie- I’ll check it out. I’m always afraid I’ll be a stumbling block to my kids. It wouldn’t be intentional just being protective.

  5. June 1, 2015 at 10:13 am

    You don’t have to live with that regret. You can pursue music in so many different ways now. One way that I think would fit you is to have your own YouTube channel sharing your music. Same as touring? No, but you get to share your awesomeness with strangers all over the world. And who knows…it could lead to a tour down the road playing at local shops combining travel with music.

    • June 1, 2015 at 10:20 am

      I think right before writing this I realized that it was an actual regret. I’ve been exploring some ways to integrate music into my dream job. Maybe we’ll see something #soon

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