I’m not one to worry too much about things that happened in the past.
I’ve made peace with most of the stupid things I’ve done and said. It helps to eventually realize I was a pretty big jerk in my younger days. I get it. More importantly, I’m past it. There are still a couple of things that happened that I regret.
I don’t know if I’ve ever told anyone about this. At some point, either late in high school or early in college, I thought I wanted to do something different. For those who know me, I love playing music. I wanted to be a musician. A real, touring musician. The music I was into at the time the only way to get signed was to move to Los Angeles and play the clubs on Sunset Strip. I knew I didn’t have that kind of aspiration. I knew I wanted to learn more about music and the business of music. I had heard of Belmont University. They had a music program. I looked at the brochure.
All of the sudden
Fear started creeping in. How could you think you are good enough? Move somewhere where you know absolutely no one! How are you going to pay for stuff, you only know how to work in a grocery store? All these questions and very few answers. I don’t even remember talking to my parents about this. I can’t even remember if all this happened over a the course of a couple of weeks… or just a couple of minutes. It doesn’t really matter.
I talked myself out of even trying. I really regret that.
I have to remember as a parent it is my responsibility to guide my kids. I also have to remember to not let them fall into the same mistakes I made. I don’t want anyone, including and especially me, telling them there isn’t anything they can’t do. I don’t want to be the one to tell them to be realistic. I know it sound cliché, but being realistic doesn’t change the world for good. I want to change the world for the better, even if it’s just raising my kids to be the world changers.
I still get to play music and where I play is the exact place I’m supposed to be right now. It won’t lead to me a touring musician anytime soon and that’s okay. I have 2 more important projects to work on at the moment. One is 5 and the other will be 4 by the time this post comes out.
What is your biggest regret?